hey guys! todays been very depressing for me and these last couple days also. ive been very concerned with soccer tryouts and today i tell you my story: i was on the jv soccer team last year at niceville and today we got a note that would change my life dramatically. since i was 5 i became in love with the game and its been my main concentration on tv on the net at school and on the field. well these last 3 days i had soccer tryouts for the next year. mr. denton called my name and slid me the piece of paper, with a disappointing paper. i stared at the paper glaring in the sun and could see the white sheet at the words "thankyou for trying out. Unfortunately.." and it shock me and i knew.. that for the first time in my life and my second year in high school i did not make the niceville soccer team. soccer has been my life all i think about and its gone..slipped out of my tips like that! on the way home my dad asked me about it and i bursted in tears "i didnt make it dad" and just like i said..i didnt! i cried and cried..i called my mom who was shocked my stepmom also and my sister who felt very sorry as well.. i feel like my hopes and dreams had slipped away. after i looked at the sheet..tasha came up to me and was smiling :she made the team: "hay lindsey did you make it" and i shook my head no. she looked at me and i fell in her arms with tears, burning tears, falling from my eyes and she told me lindsey itll be okay, it'll be okay. and i know she's right but thats when i realized it, for the first time how great of a friend tasha was to me.and in times of need you know your true friends really do shine! and i was glad i had her..i tried to hide my tears all day and im not sure if ill ever get over this. but last night when i was in my bed praying i asked god if soccer was right for me if it wasnt tell me or if i have failed him don't put me on that team..and thats exactly what he did. and i know gods trying to send me down a path but i dont know whats right? and i dont like either of the choices..
i dont know what to do my heart hurts and im just not sure how to heal it...